Life is sometimes like a fucking hurricane
Holy shit, last couple of weeks have been a fucking hurricane. It hasn’t been stressful or anything, just completely unexpected, untamed, and have sort of shaken my entire life forever. I don’t know where to start. I can say that it all has given me a perspective on life that I’ve forgotten.
I am fully inspired and living my life for once. La vie est drole.
The last two weeks; wait, let me rephrase that ‘the last two months’, have been the craziest times of my life. I can’t even explain how: the continuous nights of drinking; the endless sorts of parties, and straight-up notoriety. However; I think this has changed me in ways that I don’t really like.
I’ve already changed in ways like understanding the importance of people in your life, and remembering not to neglect the value of relationships while I’ve lived abroad. Now, I believe I’m starting to become a bit too social, or in other words, I feel as though I am a bit too dependent on people. I’m like a social leech needing to be around people for their energy since I feel as though I become more energetic because they are, I guess.
I think I need to chill out and just relax a bit or at least not do so much craziness. I think I’ll relax and not go out so much since I hate this feeling of depending on other people. Besides, I’m starting to live a weird bat-owl life which I can’t stay awake in the day, but at 3:00 in the morning I’m fucking jittery and full of energy.
—Haruki Murakami (村上 春樹)